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Tee's 13th "Angel Day"

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Tee, age 3

For a little while, God loaned you to us....and what a miracle of love you continue to be.

Thirteen years ago.

It sounds like a long time,

Yet it seems only yesterday I was holding you.

And thirteen years….

That’s how old you were.

You left this earth the day before your fourteenth birthday,

Thirteen years ago.

 

Many things have changed since then, my precious boy,

But much is also the same.

I still love you the same.

I still miss you the same.

And I still feel incomplete without you here.

You were like an angel, you know…

Like an angel who swooped down from Heaven

And lit up my heart with such a warm glow of love

That it still takes my breath away when I picture you in my mind!

Although that light has dimmed, it will never go out,

For I will never stop loving you.

 

You touched many lives in such amazing ways, my sweetheart.

It seemed you had the gift of bringing out the best

In everyone who met you.

You had no need to speak with words;

You spoke the language of one heart to another.

Your gentle smile…the purity and innocence in your deep brown eyes…

The way you reached out with your very spirit.

What a miracle you continue to be!

How I wish I could hold you just one more time,

Kiss your soft cheek and stroke your silky hair.

You were as fragile as a tiny flower,

Yet so incredibly strong at the same time.

How will I go on without you?

I won’t.  Indeed, I can’t.

Thank God I know you are always here with me in my heart,

And one day I will hold you close again.

 

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Joni & Jenny taking Tee out for his 13th!!

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"Wow!! Look what the Easter Bunny brought us!!"

How Will I Go On?

 

 

How will I go on without you?

How will I face each long, lonely day?

Empty arms still aching to hold you,

And an empty heart since you went away.

 

I know your days with us here were numbered

The Lord just let us have you for awhile.

But oh, how much you filled our lives with sunshine!

And how my world would light up with your smile.

 

Since you left, the darkness overwhelms me;

At times I don’t think that I can go on.

But in my heart, I know you’re free in Heaven,

And I’ll be with you soon, my precious one.

 

For now, I’m holding on to all the memories,

The quiet times I held you close to me;

The smiles, the tears, the pain and joy that we shared—

You created a Mother’s heart in me.

 

Jan Nethery

 

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To Our Tee

 

Deep in my heart, you will always live,

Even though now you are gone.

And deep in my heart I know I’ll see you again,

Until then I have to just keep going on.

 

        So the light in my soul will be the love in your eyes;

        Those sweet memories will comfort me.

        And the Lord up above will hold us both in His love,

        Until once again in Heaven we will meet.

 

Oh, how I long for just one of those times,

Hearing your soft, gentle voice;

Holding you close in these arms of mine,

My heart overflowing with joy.

 

I am so glad that your pain is all gone,

And no more tears will you cry.

In my heart I know that your soul has found a home,

But oh, how I miss your sweet smile.

 

So the light in my soul will be the love in your eyes;

        Those sweet memories will comfort me.

        And the Lord up above will hold us both in His love,

        Until once again in Heaven we will meet.

  

Jan Nethery      3/8/98

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The Lamb       
 
     Little Lamb, who made thee?
     Dost thou know who made thee;
Gave thee life and bid thee feed
By the stream and o'er the mead;
Gave thee clothing of delight,
Softest clothing, woolly, bright;
Gave thee such a tender voice
Making all the vales rejoice?
     Little Lamb, who made thee?
     Dost thou know who made thee?
 
     Little Lamb, I'll tell thee;
     Little Lamb, I'll tell thee;
He is called by thy name,
For He calls Himself a Lamb.
He is meek and He is mild;
He became a little child.
I a child and thou a lamb,
We are called by His name.
     Little Lamb, God bless thee.
     Little Lamb, God bless thee.
 
William Blake
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Blue Day

 

Well, I’m crying, inside I’m dying,

But on the outside I’m looking fine.

Since you went away, been one long cloudy day,

And it seems that old sun, he just won’t shine.

 

I’m still going through the motions,

Putting on that happy face, putting on that smile.

Nobody knows that I’ve cried an ocean

Ever since the day we said goodbye.

 

When I gaze up at the stars above me,

I’d like to imagine one of them is you.

Shining on me, can’t help but wonder

If maybe you are thinking of me, too.

 

Jan Nethery

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Dream

 

Finally the long-awaited dream comes.

I am holding you, my beautiful boy,

Cradling you in my arms.

You hear my voice and turn to me

With unfailing love

In your sweet, brown eyes.

You smile, snuggling close to my heart,

And then I tell you

What a joy to my soul you are.

You laugh,

And your face lights up my world.

Your squeal of delight

Makes my spirit sing,

And I think,

...Oh, how blest I am,

To have such an angel in my arms...

 

For the first time since you left this earth,

I wake up smiling.

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Special Olympics shirt! Age 13

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Easter Sunday, 1994

This was taken the Easter before Tee passed away.  He was very sick and running a fever, but when I suggested maybe we should stay home and not go to church, he puckered up his bottom lip and started to cry!  Needless to say, we DID go to church.  Isn't he just so handsome in his brand new suit?

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Tee, about 18 months old.

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He loved to play with this clock---busy boy!!

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Joni (age 2) sharing her dinner with Tee (age1)

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Birthdays!! Joni 3, Tee 2.

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Tee's "Arizona" look.....age 13.

The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.
He makes me to lie down in green pastures;
He leads me beside the still waters.
He restores my soul;
He leads me in the paths of righteousness
For His name's sake.
 
Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil;
For You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.
 
You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;
You anoint my head with oil;
My cup runs over.
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me
All the days of my life;
And I will dwell in the house of the Lord Forever.
 
Psalm 23